易伊蓮於2003年10月
Yee
I-Lann, October 2003
地平線
HORIZON
我熱愛開闊的沙漠,那種一望無際的遼闊空間,我的眼睛可以看到很遠很遠,沒有任何的樹木、建築或是一個山丘阻擋我的視線。我喜歡廣大的天空,彷彿我注視它愈久,它就會用宇宙無涯的知識與可能性擁抱我。我喜歡圓形的地球,地平線將我圍繞,並且將我註記在這裡;此刻,在這裡。我喜歡有自己的想法,這就是我處在宇宙中心的証明,每個事物都是起源於我,這是真實的,我可以看見,這是真的。
I love
the open desert. I love having so much space. I love stretching my eyes to a
distant distant point that’s not interrupted by a tree, a building or a hill. I
love that huge sky that gets heavier and heavier the longer I look at it and it
lightly embraces me with all the knowledge and possibility of the universe. I
love the disc of the earth, the horizon that circles me, marks me and places me
Here. At this point. Here. I love having perspective. I am the center of the universe
and this is my proof, everything stems from me. I can see it, it is real; it is
true.
當我移動一步,所有的東西都改變了,地平線跟著我移動,一下如影隨形一下又離我愈來愈遠,聚合又消散,彷彿要讓我窒息。地平線綿延不絕的線在調侃我、質疑我,我的所在與我的觀點於是改變了,我迷失了,在高原中央的不確定與疑惑阻斷了我,它不讓我思考,不讓我成為我想要的樣子。伴隨著地平線的天空禁閉了我的越逃,聚合又消散,它否定了自己的存在同時也否定了我的存在,我其實一無所有,這一切都是幻影,它不是真實的但是它仍然是真的。
And then
I take a step and everything changes, the horizon moves with me stalking me yet
running away with its continuous line; it’s joining and separating, suffocating
me. It teases me, questions me, challenges me and always my here, my
perspective, changes and I am lost uncertain confused at the center of this
disc that wont let me think, that wont let me be. The sky in concert with the
horizon seals my escape, joining and separating. It denies its own existence as
it denies mine. I have no mine. It is all illusion, it is not real but it is
still true.